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Posted: 20 May 2007 at 8:55pm | IP Logged

Aww Lorna i'm sorry to hear this. I know this is really hard and it doesn't seem it but in time your pain will get easier. I lost my grandma 3 years this year. I was 19 weeks pregnant and i was very close to her. I was there when she passed. She was only 61 when she passed.

You will always love her and you will never forget her. Its great you have your memories. I still think of my grandma everyday.

I'm here if you need to chat. xxxxx

Posted: 23 May 2007 at 3:08pm | IP Logged

lorna,im so sor i almost mssed this,huge hugs to you luv im so so sorry,the others have said it all realy.

wer all here for you.

good luck with your exams your nan will be proud nomatter what.

luv lauren xxx

Posted: 23 May 2007 at 9:00pm | IP Logged

Well I took an exam today despite telling my tutor.  She said I'd been to placement monday and tuesday, so I should've been ok to do it today...

I feel I've messed the whole thing up.  I got so tired during it yawning so much and felt like I could have slept.  When she said the hour was up we could go I left 10 mins after it.  I was writing irrelevant rubbish.  Anyway, if I ave remediation or re-assessment, it will be be taken into consideration.

I have another tomorrow, but I have the funeral, so having an authorised absence.

Thanks for all your messages - they've meant so much to me.  I've had a lot of support at home and with friends and have had to give my parents so much support.  My dad especially, he was a mummys boy.  The last time I saw him cry so much was when our lab died when I was 13 - 7 years ago.  I've cried.  A heck of a lot!  Sometimes I'd go to the bathroom and just sob for 5 mins, and sometimes I'd be sitting on the couch and ball my eyes out.  Like last night on the F word he was making scotch pancakes which was the 1st thing my gran taught me how to make!  Just like the shops!

I suppose one good thing has come out of it.  I don't know if any of you read my post a while ago on the relationship with my mum.  I felt it so hard forgiving her and no matter how hard I tried I just couldn't see her as 'mum'.  Well I've begun to see life is short and if that was my mum passing away, I'd be so upset and angry I didn't do anything about it....

Thanks all, xxxx