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Posted: 09 June 2007 at 12:55pm | IP Logged

After a week of being very down and tearful and thinking I was heading into depression I was relieved this morning to find my af had started.

I have been temping since my mc and the software did indicate I ovulated about 10 days ago but I ignored it thinking it was my temps just being wacky after the mc.  When I mc'ed in December my temps were all over the place so expected them to be this time.  But it looks like my body treated the mc as the start of a new cycle.

Bit confused though as I didn't get a negative hpt until after I think I ovulated but maybe the hcg had dropped enough for my body to not be affected by it or the hcg went out of my blood quicker than it did my urine, I have no idea and can't figure it out.

Anyway so far this af which started yesterday but I thought it was just heavier spotting seems to be a lot more normal than the one I had after having the ERCP in December so that's a relief.

I hadn't stopped spotting apart from the odd day here and there since the mc either and had read that you need to have had no bleeding at all for 20 days until you can say it's a true af but there is no doubt this is.  Looking back I had all the symptoms of ovulating when I think I did but didn't think it was possible.

Just goes to show our bodies know more than our heads ever will. 

Posted: 09 June 2007 at 1:03pm | IP Logged

Im with you on that one chica...bodies are strange things!

Still got piccies in my head of a thermometer and a jug...got a bigger bathroom now so wont get stuck, or bang my heeed on the sink.

Chin up birdie

Posted: 09 June 2007 at 1:11pm | IP Logged

My head is on another planet at the moment.

You sound alot more like you're ole self, sam, strong and determined.  I was so sorry to hear that you had miscarried.  How is life treating you now?

Posted: 09 June 2007 at 5:34pm | IP Logged

I am ok, plodding onwards.  Some days better than others.  Work is good because then I don't have to think about anything other than work.  I think the hardest bit is people that started trying for a baby when I did now have babies and people that didn't weren't even trying are having babies.  I know what other people do doesn't affect me but it hurts sometimes when we are still here trying.

Sometimes it feels easier to just stop now and end all the pain and anxiety of it.  We have Ols and I occasionaly see the girls when they remember I exist, we are happy and have a good life.  I enjoy my job so why keep putting ourselves through this.  Then I think about what if I never have another child?  It's not even about being pregnant it's caring for a child and enjoying them and laughing and crying with them.

I tried Babies R Us but they didn't seem to have any in stock!!

Posted: 09 June 2007 at 5:41pm | IP Logged

Sam I wont do and 'Aww Sam' thread because I know that isnt you but I want you to know I'm thinking of you.

Life sucks! We all know it unfortunatly. The decision must be a tough one but its one only you can make. Maybe its best to put off making the decision for a few months and then decide.

I wish you all the best in your recovery. I'm glad AF has shown up as it will make the physical recovery easier but I'm sure the emotional one will take longer. Just take each day as it comes and allow yourself the time and space to grieve. There is no need to try and be superwoman, no one expects it!

Here if you need to chat!

Posted: 09 June 2007 at 6:32pm | IP Logged

   I know what you mean Sam and wish you all the best for the future what ever you decide to do.

Posted: 09 June 2007 at 6:58pm | IP Logged

hiya..agree agree.. bodies are the oddest thingymaboP.

i didnt have  a period for four months and then went on the pill to start the cycle again..and became pregnant...odd id say.

Posted: 09 June 2007 at 10:21pm | IP Logged

Sam, pleased that you are still being positive.

It must be hard to when as you say, people seem to be producing babies without trying.

I cannot begin to understand your pain, but I am hoping that time will help you come to a decision you find you can live with.

Posted: 10 June 2007 at 7:02pm | IP Logged

Not sure what to say really, but just wanted you to know I am thinking of you

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