Post Natal Depression Forum

Posted: 02 July 2007 at 1:27am | IP Logged

my PND is been bad latley.

i am sooooooooo fed up.

i told my dh i wanted to kill myself and guess what he laughted. i just feel like nothing is going wright in my life the now. the only thing stopping me is Katie. I know david wouldnt remember me if i went and my dh would get over me. but my wee girl is 4 and i know she would hate me all her life.

I have no money any time i do the kids get it or my DH i am always last in the line. I am staying in a * house over crowed in an anti social street. I am not going on holiday i have no job. my dh is depressed and is not going to work so i am worried he will lose his job. Nobody will look ater the kids for an over night, david gets up at 5am every morning and i cant sleep cos of my SPD. duing the day all i want to do is sleep and hide. I hate how i look i feel so fat and spotty and my hair is a mess . MY dh thinks by telling me i look fine then that will make it ok. I am compleatly off sex and my DH keeps on trying.

sorry i just needed to get that out as i know you all undrestand. Oh and i am crying for the first time in over 4months

Posted: 02 July 2007 at 9:58am | IP Logged

Sorry to hear you are feeling so bad - Lynie is right - crying is good. Getting everything off your chest will help too - so keep talking about it all. Please ring the doctor - I went through a similar stage where I felt everything was going wrong and I couldn't cope, but there is help for you. I found counselling a godsend.

Remember there is always someone to talk to - don't feel that you are alone, and need to bottle everything up. Take care xxx

Posted: 02 July 2007 at 10:41am | IP Logged

i dont know what to say hun other than im so sorry your feeling like this,i wish i could be closer to you and i could come and help you out and give you a break it sounds like you need it.

men dont seem to understand our emotions and feelings at the best of times and your dp being depressed will make things harder too,pls dont feel like your alone wer all here for you anytime let it all out.

i deff think you shoudl both go to your gp together and explain your situation and see what help they can offer,and keep on at the housing,if your thinking about suicide surely they must realise how truly unhappy you are and that your situation is unbearable.

you are a valued member of this community and have offered support to many others,your a lovely lady and great mother you cannot poss think about hurting yourself,you feel bad now and prob cant see a way out but pls pls look forward and see that you have so much going for you,you can do anything you want and get out of this depression,it wont be easy but your children will get you through i promise and once your in a bigger house you will all be much more comfortable.

im so sorry,theses words just dont seem enough i totally understand how low you feel and i just wish i could give you a hug ((((hugs))))

take care and chat anytime xxxxxx

Posted: 02 July 2007 at 10:49am | IP Logged

1st things first hun a huge big hug.........i know it seems so lil but we do care hun and it is gd you can share how u r feeling. I f you feel it may be hard to go and share all this with your dr why don't u print off  the things you have written and give your dr a copy to read.

loads of hugs and love hunnie.

xx

Posted: 02 July 2007 at 2:31pm | IP Logged

A problem shared is a proplem halfed.

Just remember that you are not alone, and like the girls said its good to cry. It will get some of your frustration out.

I would have a visit to your GP, Tell him/her how you arre feeling and whats going on. I went to a different Gp to talk about my pnd as I felt more comfortable...well it was kind of an accident as I was at the gp with rachel not me and I just told her everything.

When I went on the meds.....I felt better almost straight away, I think I needed to talk to some one too.

There is nothing worse than the feeling that you are worthless and that you can't cope with what life trows at you.

I know what you mean about a dh who doesn't understand.....When I told my dh he was ashamed of me and told me not to tell any one. He would often say to take two of thoes tablets because I was in a mood. To this day he says i didn't really need them.....but in saying that it did make him realise what i was going tru and I didn't feel so alone.

Sorry for the rant, I just wish I could be of more help.

Going to my Gp saved me.

I hope you feel better soon

Posted: 02 July 2007 at 2:48pm | IP Logged

I agree your next call should be to either your Hv or your gp.

I remember feeling exactly as you do not so very long ago.  You know deep down that both your children need you and loved you so much.  Your all they know.  Men do not fully understand women so they say what they feel we need to hear when half the time thats not it.

Mothers always come the last in the line even though we all need to be treated every now and again.

I agree with Lynie that you should ask you hv about getting restbite childcare so you can have some time to breath, could you dh not have the children whilst you get some time alone.

have you thought about counselling? Sometimes its better for you to speak to someone who doesnt know you or anything about you.

I hope you feel better soon you can beat this illness as thats exactly what it is.

Keep strong and i hope you can get all the support you need

Hugs

rin