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Posted: 31 October 2007 at 8:58pm | IP Logged

Hi all sorry for this moan

My hips have been agony all day, tear jurking ones.... and i thought things couldn't get much worse i was walking from the school hall to the car tonight with ds superman in tow when less than 50yrds from the car i fall over hip went, ankle went and then the rest of me followed so owwww.

Looking forward to a good night and week me thinks! Joy! Sorry all i'm just fed up of being in pain and i have so much to do now with christmas, hospital appointments and now packing as we'll be moving house hopefully in the new year to a bungalow as i've been beaten by the stairs well and truely!

Just so fed up and in so much pain right now...... sorry.

Better go and find a tissue and then rest some more..... hope the rest of you are all well.....

Posted: 31 October 2007 at 9:22pm | IP Logged

Poor you. Hope you manage to get some sleep tonight Tsena.

xxx

Posted: 31 October 2007 at 9:28pm | IP Logged

Aaawwww hun hope your feeling better soon xx

Posted: 31 October 2007 at 9:38pm | IP Logged

Thanks all but i must need more practice at hiding my pain either that or hide away from madz as she was with me this morning and took/heavily insisted that she took my bags etc!

I'm not used to the help, i don't like people knowing i'm in pain and how much, it bothers me that family seem to think i can't cope i just want to be as normal as possible.

I want to be able to look after my kids and pick them up from parties, be a normal mum who can keep house and cook not end up a couch potato druged upto the eyeballs..... sorry just low at the moment and in pain.

Posted: 31 October 2007 at 10:32pm | IP Logged

Bath would be lovely i could get in it if dp lifted me in but i think i'd get stuck as getting in the bath to shower is #ell.

I will say thank you PurpleKangroo i don't feel brave and i dont feel fab but your right that my boys have to come first.... it's just when they are in bed and i see them sleeping i really think about all i'm making them miss out on and how much i must be different to the other mums.

Things i'd long to do with them etc..... i don't know if i'm ever going to get better fully and thats the bit i need to know then i could suck it up and addapt my hole life etc but at the moment i'm living one day hoping that when i wake it'll be better and i can do mummy stuff again.

Sorry didn't mean to moan some more

Posted: 01 November 2007 at 9:50am | IP Logged

Thanks for that hun i might take you up on the offer but as madz knows i'm stubborn and like to try and do it all myself to make me feel normal!

Anyway had a rough night last couldn't get comfy, oramorhp did diddly squat, i know i was awake well after 2 as i got up and had to go potty....  Well this morning hips are agony and meds aren't touching it can't take more morphine as i've got to drive and ankle is sore but ok......

So looks like a good day all in all!

I hope you are all ok and had a better night..... wishing you all a good day.

Posted: 01 November 2007 at 2:46pm | IP Logged

Hi madz, thanks for the offer and i will bear you in mind if i need help. But you have your life to live and a poorly eds. I wounldn't want to take his mummy way from him when he's feeling icky.

Going into the hositpal for my physio appointment this morning i was looking forward xrays so i could find out if it was dsp or spd, as my physio has always speculated its the first one.

As for my fall i'm sure i'll be ok, physio didn't seem to care or want to know and i can't be arsed with gp's at the moment! She checked me out for the first time in 8mths and said that i was extremely tender in my bits (noooo never) and that it was all level which is good, but as soon as i try and move anything i'm screwed!

She then cancelled the xrays as she doesn't think it's important or nessecary as she wants to leave me be till i've seen dr m on the 22nd november and she'll ring me the next week to find out his plans! This was all on top of a very painful and slow walk to the entrance as they've shut the closest car park to them.... mustard!!

So a waist of bloody time she pulled up an old xray and said there was a gap there but couldn't tell me if it was significant as she said it might be a normal size of gap for you but might be huge for someone else.... chicken fudge!

On my way home i don't remember the journey and i know from my feelings i remember driving ahead thinking it would be so eay to crash right now, no kids in the car and i'm sure they'd be better of and have more fun if i wasn't around, staring ahead at the road and not concentrating as i normally do..... Don't panic ladies..... once i realise this is how i was feeling i pulled over and stopped the car got out and got a drink out from the boot and sat there in the grass having a drink and it snapped me back to normal...

My gp knows this is how i feel and she believes that it's all down to my hips and both her and my physio are pinning there hopes for my mental and pyhsical status on Dr M!

I just hope he can do something to help me... I know it's selfish but i can't wait much longer i'm getting so low, worrying and getting so anxious all over being near people and having contact, i want to hide away and let no one close and i know it's silly but i can already feel myself trying to push people away and i do find it difficult to talk on here somedays, as i just want to hide in the back ground etc. But i know it's not good and at least this way i can hide behind the laptop etc.

Sorry i hope i haven't worried you all unduely i just wanted to be honest and i'm really trying not to bottle it all up.