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Posted: 29 June 2008 at 9:46am | IP Logged

hi madmummies, the plot thickens and my life continues to fall apart!

i have been going through it since feb as some of you know, following a fall exacerbating symptoms. i was back to crutches, the pain relief was upped and i went back to square one! i was put on a capability procedure which looked at my capability to return to my post as a neuro itu nurse. i saw the rheumatologist who said my xray was normal, i was fearful of being moved properly and that i had chronic muscoskeletal pelvic pain. now i am left with a body that i no longer understand, as i know what i feel and yet it seems like i need to push myself. i am glad the pregnancy has not left me with permanent damage but my life has been blasted apart as a result. i now think that when i get pain is it a case of my mind playing tricks pn me? i mean this morning my left hip and all down my left leg i have pain and altered sensation.

anyhow, i'm waffling...again! the rheumatologist did say i could not return to clinical work but could go back to the workforce in a non clinical role. the occy health dr has echoed this. my work has said that there is no non clinical role for me, i can no longer work there as a result. so, needless to say 10 yrs in a world class head injuries unit, after 3 yrs of neuro nursing in other world class establishments has counted for nothing. my career has gone up in smoke.

i now have 8 weeks to find a job in the trust. i am placed on a re deployment system that means i apply for a post and HR  oversee it and it means that if i am deemed suitable then i will be placed forward for an interview. if successful i then have a 4 week trial period then either get to stay or goodbye! if after 8 weeks i don't get anything then it's a case of it's decided if i am to have my contract terminated by the trust. it will be based on sickness. i would like it to be known that sadly i have not had the best luck with sickness, but it's all been certified. it's been to dodgy neck/back and previous head injuries! oh and of course the obligatory sickness bugs that the kiddies bring into the house.

i am scared and devastated and don't know which way to turn. my wages go to half pay next month. the hubby is off his anti depressants and his moods are very labile, despite correct weaning programme, so my support system is compromised. i am limited for the posts i can apply for and i will be up against others in the redeployment process who will take precedence over me and i will have to have a wage cut. i am very sad right now. i need a cyber hug.....all this because i had my beautiful baby girl. she is worth everything. spd has alot to answer for though. the last thing to say is that at the work meeting the people said it's been agreed that you have spd???? !!!!....aaarrrggghhh

Posted: 29 June 2008 at 8:16pm | IP Logged

Awwww hugs hunny.....

I'll give you a call this week if thats ok babes, like i said it's a confusing area....

I'm so sorry to hear that you've lost your job on a technicality that they can't provide you a desk job etc... that just sucks.....

If you are still off sick and doc will issue sick notes please look into incapacity benefit etc it will ease the money worries a little.

You know we'll all support you as much as we can.

Please remember what i said to you in the texts and previous posts about my x-rays looking normal when lying down but the pain and symptoms match spd....

Huge big soft gentle hugs hun..... xxx