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Posted: 01 June 2010 at 11:01pm | IP Logged

Ok so I have never done this before... mainly because I havent needed to but I think this time is different.

I am 23 and live with my 2 girls (4 years and 13 weeks) and my boyfriend.

Recently I feel as though I am falling apart. I have been reading up on PND but was just wondering if there was anybody out there who could give me a little advice.

Over the past couple of days I seem to be acting crazy. I assumed PND happened immediately after the baby arrives only to discover it can last up to the baby being 2!! 

When i say i am acting crazy i am constantly crying, feel adgetated (sorry if this is spelt incorrectly) and on edge, dont feel the need to interact with any other people other than my boyfriend and my girls (more so my girls) i am picking arguments with my boyfriend over stupid things and making them into a huge deal. I have got it into my head that he is cheating no matter what he says i am convinced and because of this i have been behaving like a crazy person towards him.

Not only that but i am constantly worrying about money, obsessing over it infact, although when i look at it when my head is clear there are no real worries.  The past couple of days i have felt like this constantly. i feel i am not good enough, that i am in the way of other people and dont want to tread on their toes (this is just not like me) ugly and a waste of space, but at the same time do not want my girls going anywhere with anyone other than myself as i feel that nobody can look after them the way that i can.

Im not really sleeping as i cannot seem to shut off and just generally feel run down, fed up and tired but not overly tired (if that makes sense.)

I didnt get PND with my first but feel as though i may have the symptoms now!??? am i just bein crazy again?? Please someone just give me some advice.

I havent really spoken to my boyfriend about this before today (mainly because all i have done is scream at him) but his mum has picked up on it and has told him to take me to the doctors??!! I feel an absolute fool and feel as though the whole of his family are now talking about me behind my back calling me a mad cow...

any advice is thankfully accepted...

x L x

Posted: 01 June 2010 at 11:29pm | IP Logged

awww hun im really sorry to hear that your feeling like this,

i have never suffered from pnd myself but i know that a couple of ladies on here has.

if i was you i would go see your gp or health visitor and tell them how u feel also try talking to your partner.

sorry im not much help but im here if u want a chat.

xx