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Posted: 04 September 2006 at 2:13pm | IP Logged

I'm on happy pills.  Not sure which ones yet as the pharmacist has to order them in. Should be picking them up tomorrow.

Saw a nice lady doctor.  Fell to pieces as soon as she asked what could she do for me.  After explaining my situation and symptoms she suggested a 28 day course of anti-ds.  They're non-addictive.  I asked about sleeping remedies and she said she could prescribe me a weeks course of sleeping pills but they're addicitive so I declined.

I cried the whole time there and felt like a total wally, but I'm glad I went.  She's asked me to see her again in a months time, which I will.

She seems to think I've been depressed for at least a year from what I've told her.  This has been a huge shock for me as I never had a clue.  I had all the classic sides: lethargy, mood swings, snappiness, loss of libido and low self esteem. I felt lonely and isolated in Trinidad and in my marriage.  I feel like I've been 'away' for a year because I've missed this completely. I know I haven't been my normal self but never thought it was depression.  The doctor can't be certain it's pnd, but because there is a family history of depression then I'm more than likely got it too.

Hope this is helpful to anyone else who may be feeling the same way.  If you are I urge you to face up to it because depression bites you on the bottom soon enough.

Posted: 04 September 2006 at 2:24pm | IP Logged

Phew, at least your all sorted.  It'll take a couple of weeks for the pills to start working, so it may be a while before you notice a difference, but trust me when you do you'll feel like you can take on the world and then some.  Do go back in a months time, should just be a general check up on how the pills are working..wether they increase your dosage or leave it how it is.

My advice for you madam, is get some paper, nick a pencil from the boys and start doodling.

It is a lot easier talking to someone who isn't 'involved' if that makes sense.  Last time i saw the doc he erm stopped me after a few minutes and then told me off for not coming to see him sooner, and wanted to know how i hadnt fallen to pieces earlier.  You'll be fine trust me, have faith in yourself, you can do this.

Posted: 04 September 2006 at 2:31pm | IP Logged

Zoe Im so proud of you going to the doctor, you have taken a very important step in getting back on track. Let the tablets kick in babe, as Steph it may take a few weeks. We're here if you need to sound off anytime!

Thinking of you babe xxxxx

Posted: 04 September 2006 at 3:02pm | IP Logged

Well done you for going

Don't be embarrassed about crying in front of the GP I am sure they have seen it a thousand times

You have done really well admitting how you feel as so many people bottle it all up and make things worse

I am sure once the tablets kick in you'll feel the benefit

Hang in there hun you are doing great

xxxxxxxxxxxx

Posted: 04 September 2006 at 3:07pm | IP Logged

Well done babe! You should be very proud of yourself!

Unfortunatly it is very difficult for someone with depression to realise there is anything wrong. At least now you are getting some help. Dont worry about crying in front of the gp - I've done it 3 times now with different gps and they are all fab! They are used to it and take it in their stride.

The tablets will take a while to work but you'll probably find you are feeling more positive already for getting it out in the open.

Loads of love and hugs!

Posted: 04 September 2006 at 4:58pm | IP Logged

Well done Zoe, you should be very proud of yourself....I am proud of you and I don't even know you, lol.

Things will fall into place, trust me, like Sam said it will take time. Give yourself a chance.

Trust me if my mother could do it after 21 years of marrige you can.

You are a strong brave lady and going to the doctors is the first step. You are a inspairation.