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Posted: 19 October 2006 at 7:59pm | IP Logged

Hi Not sure where to start but basically ive got my nursery nurse (h.v assistant) coming to see me about my son........to be honest i want to talk to her about ME. As yes youve guessed prob on this board...i think i have pnd...or something.....god im not sure and i feel so silly and embarrassed and not even sure i can talk and tell her as i dont know myself......does this make sense.. Ive got two beautiful kids 2yrs and other 8 months. They are brillant kids and sleeping is ok at nights for them, but i get so worked up about going out and dont really much to be honest. My family live far away (by plane) and my oh`s dont visit much.....My oh has just started a new job and works away all week and im so so lonely. God im rambling now......just wondering what will happen if i do tell the nursery nurse in morning about not feeling like me anymore...

sorry for going on x

Posted: 19 October 2006 at 8:07pm | IP Logged

Hello darling and welcome.

I have depression-just separated from dh, it's all new but my GP thinks that I've actually had PND for some time.  I never realised until one day things just got on top of me.  But I'm so glad I spoke to my doctor, and yes I did blub all over her but she was lovely and v. supportive.  I have seen her 4 times in 5 weeks, but she never complains or makes me feel silly.

I can totally relate to how you're feeling.  I too felt embarrassed, ashamed, desperate, lonely and worthless, but I find talking about it helps.  I'm now on anti-depressants, have a new job and childcare sorted out for my two little boys (Max is 3 and Tom is 17 months) and life is beginning to look so much better.  The tablets send serotin to my brain which lightens my mood and I feel more in control.  I no longer feel suicidal (yes, it really did get that bad), but I'm not naive to think that I'm over it yet because it does take time.

Please don't feel ashamed.  Depression is an illness and if you want to know just how many people are going through it take a look at some of the threads under mental health it will astound you.  Welcome to madmums-you will definitely make lots of friends on here and soon you'll be able to smile again and even begin to laugh at yourself and life.

Take care.  Zo xxx

PS Please let us know how you get on.

Posted: 19 October 2006 at 8:12pm | IP Logged

Thank you for your quick reply Zo......

I will let you know ....that is if i dont chicken out and pretend like all is ok...as im not sure if i can say anything and to be honest i dont know what to say to her as i really not sure what is wrong other than im lonely and tired.

Thanks againx

Posted: 19 October 2006 at 8:13pm | IP Logged

erm everything that she said!

Hi and welcome.  Youll be fine tomorrow...pile on here and have a chat anytime

Posted: 19 October 2006 at 8:16pm | IP Logged

Thanks Steph

Didnt think i would replies this quickly...........just what will happen if i do talk will she deal with me or do i have to go to h.v as she i knew and i dont feel comfortable with her.....i do like my nursery nurse though.....just wondering..

x

Posted: 19 October 2006 at 8:22pm | IP Logged

Hopefully, she'll be sympathetic, a good listener and supportive.  If she does suspect you have PND she should refer you to a doctor.  Please don't chicken out, like I say it's an illness, you've done nothing wrong.  In fact, coming on here and telling us about your feelings is a step forward in the right direction-well done you!!

Posted: 19 October 2006 at 8:28pm | IP Logged

I guess it is a first step but typin it is so easy ......even though i still get teary typing on here......just if i have to go to docs i will get all worked up again about going out oh god im such a wuss...my partner is back tommorow and hasnt got a clue he just thinks im tired and tells me im very forgetful.....very as im always forgettin to do things.....read that was a sign of pnd???.....and i hate to be upset tommorow in front of my kids esp 2yr old. ok will stop moaning thanks again for reading ...

X

Posted: 19 October 2006 at 8:56pm | IP Logged

Hi Lynn

Sorry you too arent feeling too hot....if thats the correct wording to use....

Yes i will let you all know how i get on....mad i think i would rather go through labour again than talk about me...as i swear i really dont know what to say...

X

Posted: 19 October 2006 at 8:57pm | IP Logged

Hi hun and welcome.

I also know how you feel.  I spoke to my HV a few months back and she said i had pnd even tho my daughter is 4 and my son is 2.  I have now been on anti depressants for a few months and feel better by the day.  As the advert says........."Its good to talk".  Lol.

Love Trudi.  xx