| Posted: 13 November 2006 at 10:15am | IP Logged
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Hi all. Jenny, its Fluoxitine I'm taking. I've taken it before, but not for as long. I've been on this lot for 18 months.
I've not taken one today (so still on 2 on 1 off) and will see how I feel tomorrow and wednesday. If I still don't feel settled on it, I'll go back to 3 on 1 off and go back to see the doctor.
I'm off to meet Greedy in a mo which is good as it will get me out of the house. I'm having this wrestling match in my head about it as Ella isn't 100% and it would be the easiest thing in the world to ring her up and cancel but, I really want to go - I'm just struggling to get myself out! ITS MAD!!
This is the part that I hate. Why the hell do I have to battle myself to get out of the door to go somewhere I want to go. I'm not just saying it cos she'll probably read this (Hi Greeds!) but because this is a typical reaction for me. I plan to go somewhere, then the day comes and - I turn to stone on the doorstep. What am I scared of? What do I think is going to happen? I don't know, I just struggle to do it. I've met her before, I'm really looking forward to it, its not the drive, its a nice day - so what is it?!
I am going to go. DH is on his way to his Granny's funeral today in Chichester and I've asked him to ring me at 10.30 to make sure I leave the house. Its madness, i've even set an alarm clock in the past and its not uncommon for me to literally jump out of the door! You see saying it out loud makes it sound even more stupid.
I do wonder if this part of me will hang around for ever. I bottled out of a works night out the other day - to go out for an indian - MY FAVOURITE FOOD! What the hell is wrong with me.
Oh well, have to go and finish getting ready. Thanks all.
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