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Posted: 07 December 2006 at 2:53pm | IP Logged

Right then ladies..the results are in...and they are pants.

I have Grade 3 Breast Cancer..its the fastest most aggressive form of breast cancer that there is.  So at least I dont do things by half lol.  Im still a bit numb and a bit shaky..but controlling the tears til later.  My lumps pretended to be friendly but when removed they were telling porky pies and are greedy pig cancer.  They have hormone receptors on which in a nutshell means they are feeding off my own bodies hormones.  I have to stop my pill immediately (so they dont get extra pudding).  It has spread to my lymph nodes, which means that it can now go anywhere it bleeding feels like.  So am back up the hozzie tomorrow for them to stick a needle in my lymph nodes (in armpit) which is going to hurt and not how I invisiged 9am put it that way. Im to have xrays, bloods, ultrasounds and lots of poking and prodding all day tomorrow..so will be having a full hozzie tour.  I get the results back on monday when I go up at 12.15..the nurse said they wouldnt get the results back in time however, the consultant says he doesnt care if cytology has to work late they will get the results in.  At the moment I am penciled in to have another op on the 19th where they will remove all my lymph nodes and will either do a partial or a full mastectomy (ive agreed to both but its the surgeons call on the table).  They are hitting me with everything..im going to have radiotherapy, chemotherapy, anti-hormone therapy and herceptin (the drug the nhs was winging about being to pricey..im getting it woohoo) they are not going to do one treatment at a time..im going to have them all at once.  If he can get me in before the 19th then he will.  He says i have a 70% chance..which is better than 60% so thats a bonus.  It will be 12 months worth of treatment so am going to be getting very up close and personal with my loo put it that way.  Joe is devastated..and so is the family and am guessing all you guys will be to.  Joe has gone into work and I think they are going to sign him off for the next 12 months but we shall see.  Ive seen my pretend boob that they are going to fit me with..not a chicken fillet but a defo turkey fillet, so hope that all makes you grin about your crimbo dinner.  Im stubborn and pig headed and nothing else has defeated me yet..so this poxy bug isnt going to stop me!!  The doc asked me if I wanted a drink...I said a beer, however i got a cup of sweet tea and a bloomin god squad nurse who did my tree in.  He has suggested that I get hammered tonight (of which I think I intend to lol).  Ive met my dedicated bc nurse shes called Corrinne and shes just as twisted as me.  So all fun and games.  Right then, I will love you loads (cos I aint leaving you all) and let you all absorb this..drink some tea, have some fags etc.  Im fine, just got to carry on being stubborn.

Posted: 07 December 2006 at 2:59pm | IP Logged

Steph, I'm absolutely gob smaked and really don't know what to say. I really wish that I did.

You absolutely have the right attitude to this, go in screaming and shouting and kick it in the ass. You go for it.

We are all absolutely thinking of you and wish you all the best with your treatment and your recovery - you can do this.

As for the boob - I have a friend who had a masectomy and has a velcro on boob that she enjoys throwing at people...

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Posted: 07 December 2006 at 3:19pm | IP Logged

Steph I too wish I had the words for you

I'm sorry that the result was this I really am

But you are a fighter and I know you will go full throttle to beat this

You are so amazingly strong and I know you can do it

Remember we are here every step of the way for you

Sending huge hugs to you and your family

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Posted: 07 December 2006 at 3:42pm | IP Logged

Steph, i really don't know what to say...

Im sat here in tears, schocked, so i can't imagine how you are feeling...

Your attitude towards it is brilliant tho, im sure we will all be having a mssive party in a year or so when you have kicked this "bug's" arse.

remember we are all here for you, every step of the way.. and fingers crossed they will let Joe have all the time off you need him for.

Massive huggles

Posted: 07 December 2006 at 3:52pm | IP Logged

Mate, I am absolutely devastated.

After you phoned me I had a cry and then felt stupid because you have been so strong about the whole situation.  You are an inspiration and if there is anything I can do just let me know and I'm there.

The rest I've said to you on the phone.

Love you darling.

Zo xxxx

Posted: 07 December 2006 at 4:02pm | IP Logged

steph there is nothing more i cn add that others have not said.....u are amazing. Every postive thought n wish is coming your way.

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Posted: 07 December 2006 at 4:07pm | IP Logged

Hi Steph.  As I have said before you are one brave lady and I know you will get through this.  If you need someone to hold a bucket for you give me a shout I am an expert vomit bucket holder and have lots of experience.

I am sat at work in an empty lab crying what a woose I am, I am putting it down to the hormones.

You have no choice to beat this because we won't let you do anything else.  I would say don't let them push you around at the hospital tomorrow but I know you won't.

Good luck, big hugs, enjoy Joe and your kids and getting hammered tonight.

Posted: 07 December 2006 at 4:23pm | IP Logged

steph i dont know wat to say hunni.  I am so shocked i was praying for a good result for you.

You are being so strong and your attitide to is amazing i dont think i could be half as strong as what you have been. 

goodluck with everything hun sending u loadsa positive vibes xxx