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Posted: 15 May 2006 at 3:20pm | IP Logged

Sounds like a book doesn't it.

Well, I've been keeping a PND diary so I can see if any patterns emerge and to encourage me when I'm having a bad day so that I can see not every day is a bad day. Last night, I jotted down that I felt ok, and notices that I'd had 10 "OK" days in a row! This is a first for me since Ella was born - and she's 13 months! It might not seem like much to anyone else, but this feels like a massive milestone for me.

I've been doing a lot of thinking recently (yes, they were my brain cogs you could hear) about the future and whether I could go through another pregnancy etc etc, and one of my biggest fears has been the pnd still having a hold of me and the risk that it could happen again with a 2nd child. I just feel today that I'm getting somewhere, and even if something happens in the rest of today to send me plummeting, I've still had 10 good days!

I know I'm not out of the woods yet and I know that bad days will happen, but for now - it just feels huge.

Hurrah!

PS - the frustrated mood is nothing to do with this... I'm frustrated at DH - whole new story there!

Posted: 15 May 2006 at 3:57pm | IP Logged

Aww Dizie that is great news! I know from my experience of depression in general that 10 good days in nothing short of a major breakthrough. Good on you.

Posted: 15 May 2006 at 4:22pm | IP Logged

that is brilliant news and i think that keeping a diary about how you feel will help you a lot so that means that you dont keep everything to yourself

hope all your days will be good days for you

Posted: 15 May 2006 at 9:39pm | IP Logged

Brilliant hun

Thats great news

I have never experienced PND but can imagine that it must a huge step forward for you.

Well done you

Posted: 20 May 2006 at 11:01pm | IP Logged

Well, we got to 15! With only 1 wobbly day, but it was only a bit wobbly, and so I said OK overall.. And then today has been lovely, but now I'm feeling all crappy again..

But its one day. I know it is in the scheme of things. I've had a fun few days, met Greedy on thursday, then Sam and Ols came to stay - and then whamo - back to earth with a thump. When I was first diagnosed with PND, I filled my weeks to make sure that I was busy and so had things to take my mind off how I was feeling. And I guess thats what the last week has been about. Not that I regret busying myself, I don't. I just feel like I've gone splat again.

I know its temp, and I knew it would happen soon enough and I know I'll bounce back... but the reasonable side of my head is asleep at the moment.

Anyway, am waffling now... will go to bed, have a nice sleep and dream of my little girls smile...