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Posted: 30 May 2008 at 9:45am | IP Logged

I hope you dont mind me doing this - but when I have low days I find it helps to write it down and see it in perspective.

I slept really badly last night. I dont really know why but I just couldnt settle at all, I was awake every hour or so and I feel so unrested this morning.

I havent been out the house since monday as I've been so busy so I have cabin fever. I am tearful and snappy and poor eds is taking the brunt of it. He has been so sweet, even when I shout at him, and when I get upset he gives me huge cuddles and tells me it'll be ok and asks where I'm hurt. I'm going out to Tesco later so at least I get out of the house lol.

I see my GP on Tuesday and I'm hoping for high dose sertraline to start with and a referal to the mental health team but we'll wait and see.

I really need to sit down with DH and bring up the whole baby issue - I am going to tell him to book a vasectomy, which is what he wants to do anyway. At the moment even thinking about it brings me out in floods of tears so I am waiting until I have got myself in a better place with the drugs etc to have that talk. I have made the decision in my own brain - I just need to admit it outloud.

I cant wait to get out to Spain - I've just had a text from my friend out there and it brought tears to my eyes (again) as I miss them and I know its going to be a good time. Irene always helps me level my head.

Thanks for listening - sorry.

Posted: 30 May 2008 at 9:54am | IP Logged

Hunny, first of all - a great big hug - cos you need it.

I definately understand the cabin fever bit - I suffer from that when Ive been in the house too long (flare-ups are the worst cos I cant go out at all). 

This time next week you will either be in spain or preparing to go - so just keep focussed on that, try to keep busy with packing - making sure you have everything you need etc.

Good luck at the GP's - was wondering - can't you get a sooner appointment so that you can have your anti d's quicker??

Stay strong and keep us informed - we're here for you hunny xxx and of course we dont mind xxxxxx

Posted: 30 May 2008 at 4:08pm | IP Logged

I agree, just focus on your upcoming trip away. I have days when I don't want to get out of bed nevermind the house, but I have to. Been so busy today I've not had time to sit and brrod which is good for me.

I hope your Gp will help you soon, just keep strong.

Posted: 30 May 2008 at 5:10pm | IP Logged

Awww hunny i'm sorry to read your feeling pants.

You have a lovely tan, and you are a lovely person. I think personally you are doing really well. Keep your chin up hun.... enjoy your little thank you treat tonight and remember you are a worthwhile person and i hope tony doesn't dread the words we need to talk!

Just remember some of the lines from wednesday night and look forward to escaping this dull weather and finding the sunshine again. If you need me you know where i am x