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Posted: 19 June 2008 at 1:39pm | IP Logged

I just wanted to explain to you all why I have only been lurking in the background since my return from Spain.

I went to the doctors before I went to Spain and asked for my anti depressents because the depression was definatley returning - I was feeling very low and cutting myself off from my friends, feeling worthless and not at all myself. I was put back on sertraline which has successfully treated my depression in the past.

Well I have now been on it 2 weeks and in that time I have hardly slept. Its too soon to have any results from the anti depressents and the lack of sleep has made it 10 times worse. I am falling asleep around 3am every morning and then waking 4 or 5 times between then and 7 when I give up and get up. So needless to say I am shattered.

This morning I took Eds to school, got back here, spoke to DH on the phone and bit his head off for no reason at all, put the phone down and burst into tears. I emailled him and apologised and he asked me to see my doctor. So I made an appt for later that morning - got a friend to collect eds from school and another wonderful friend (you know who you are) turned up on my doorstep to let me cry on her shoulder and drove me to the doctors.

I have been prescribed a weeks course of sleeping pills to try and get me back on track. One of the side effects of Sertraline is that it can keep you awake so she is hoping after a week I will be more used to it. If not then I need to move onto a different anto depressent.

Thankfully my DH has been very supportive. I just want to get back to normal as soon as possible, I hate bein miserable and just want to the old me back.

Posted: 19 June 2008 at 4:29pm | IP Logged

Awww, hunni. You know I can totally empathise with you on the sleeping bit. I'm going in for a review next week and hoping to be put up a dose as my panic attacks have been returning due to not sleeping properly.

Massive, massive hugs mate, xxxxxx

Posted: 19 June 2008 at 6:50pm | IP Logged

Hey you

You know better than anyone that it takes time, take your sweeties...let them work their magic, and let the clock tick by.  You know that its only a matter of time before the juices in your brain go from bottom of pint glass dregs..to top banana champagne..youve just got to wait chick.  Oooo like that analysis...beer dregs to champagne....and if your good you can have strawberries for added zing!

Its tough chick, and you already know that.  Buuuut...once your juices are back and all nice and fizzy that big black hole your stuck in, will get shorter and you will be able to climb out again and shove a great big flag in the top...I WON AGAIN...type thing.

Not going to say anything else...except that youd better have a bloomin big flag!

Love ya

Posted: 19 June 2008 at 8:06pm | IP Logged

Hope you get some sleep Madz, and start to feel like yourself again very soon.

xxx

Posted: 23 June 2008 at 11:29am | IP Logged

Thanks everyone.

I am very slowly starting to sleep better - I am getting to sleep a little quicker since being on the tablets although I am still waking a lot.

I am still definately not myself - not by a long shot - but I am determined to improve and to move on.

Posted: 23 June 2008 at 4:09pm | IP Logged

Glad to hear you're getting off to sleep better - hope things continue to improve for you.

xxx