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Posted: 11 October 2006 at 7:05pm | IP Logged

Hi all just need to have a good cry as i am feeling so low again.  I was diagnosed with pnd last year and for ages now i felt like i turnt a major corner.  I wasnt letting silly comments made my people or the way they looked at me bother me.  I admit i did have days where i couldnt face anyone and spend most of the days in doors or in the garden.  But recently i just feel real real low, i just wanna cry and off my meals just picking at things.  No sex drive at all i just cant be arsed. 

Comments that family have made are getting to me and i am thinking that people think i am bad mum all over again it seems like i am back at the beginning.  I spoke to john and all he said is not all this again.  Which is not want i wanna hear.  Men are not good at all this hormone stuff.

I feel like i am going mad i just need to pick myself up again sorry girls for the long post x

Posted: 11 October 2006 at 7:22pm | IP Logged

Stac, it's tough, when I had pnd, with ds1 i remember 'relapsing' quite a few times, in the 2yrs i was treated for it.

Are you still on you antidepressants?, have you thought about speaking to a third party about how you feel?

I think the thing with depression is that you still have really bad days, and it's ok to feel low and not want to go out, as long as its not happening everyday, as if it is you really need to go and see your gp.

Your not a bad mum, and your family especially dh should be supporting you through it. I know men try, but sometimes they haven't a clue and dont know how to deal with certain sensitive things.

I hope you feel better Stac, and I know its easier said and all that but don't take other people comments or stares to heart, just concerntrate on yourself & Ellen.

Take care x

Posted: 11 October 2006 at 7:43pm | IP Logged

aw Stac, I'm sorry you're feeling so low..you sound proper fed up.

I've no words of wisdom I'm afraid but I do think Rin is right and maybe a trip to the docs would be a good idea if you are feeling like this often..?

You are a fab mum, that much is obvious from the way you speak about Ellen -

I hope you feel better soon, Greedy, xx

Posted: 11 October 2006 at 7:48pm | IP Logged

hugs stac

why not have a chat with a friend face to face or someone on here who knows how you are feeling

jo xx 

Posted: 11 October 2006 at 7:56pm | IP Logged

Hi Stac, as you know I've been recently diagnosed with PND and am now on anti-depressants.  I know exactly where you're coming from and how you feel.  You're not a bad mum just a poorly mum who needs alot of understanding, love and support to get you through this dark time.

We're all here for you, lovey.

As already said a trip to the doctors may be a step forward.  Have you considered counselling too?

Please pm me if you feel lonely or low.  Or we can always arrange a meet up over the weekend.  You're only down the road afterall!

Posted: 11 October 2006 at 8:28pm | IP Logged

Stac, I just want to add to what everyone has said on here - you are soooo not on your own here. If you look back in the PND forum, you'll find a post just like this from me not so long ago!

Its such a horrible illness, but it is just that - an illness. You didn't do anything wrong, you are a fantastic mother and Ellen couldn't wish for better - and don't let anyone tell you or make you believe different!

I did go back to tht GP when I felt like this and he gave me the option of increasing my medication. I decided to give it 2 weeks to see if things improved - and it actually did so I didn't need to up things, but its worth talking to the doctor so that he knows how you're doing.

Have you noticed that you've been feeling worse now that the nights are getting darker earlier? You'll have heard about SAD on here I'm sure. I have it and I've started to use my light box early this year to try and stem off any problems.

Take care Stac. We're all here for you. Massive hugs xxxxxx

Posted: 12 October 2006 at 3:18pm | IP Logged

Hey Stac! You are not a bad mum. When I read posts from you I think 'Wow Ellen is lucky to have such a great mummy!'.

I think the best thing to do is to speak to the gp again. Sometimes we do need a little more help. I also think Dizie suggestion about SAD is a valid one (there is an article I wrote about it on here).

My DP made a similar comment last night about me never getting excited about anything anymore. It had me in tears and apologised straight away. From a man who never used to say sorry this was a big step. It is hard for them to understand but as I explained to him I am doing all I can to treat the depression and I need his support.

Sending big hugs honey! It will get better - I promise.

Posted: 12 October 2006 at 3:24pm | IP Logged

Awww Stac, xxxxxx. You are not a bad mummy. It's the pnd that makes you turn everything against yourself. If your GP is good go and talk to them and see what they suggest.

We are always here for you too, xxxxxxxx.

Posted: 12 October 2006 at 3:24pm | IP Logged

Firstly just wanted to send you a massive hug and to say that you are definitely not a bad mum hun - you are a brilliant mum and Ellen is lucky to have you

As has been said a trip to the docs might be a positive step

Also from reading what others have said maybe keeping a diary and noting down how you are feeling every day might help

You aren't alone and we are all here to give you the support you need babe

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